Back from my "trip"

"There's nothing sweet about Home Sweet Home. But... I'd rather be here than anywhere else."

Rules - Remove one of the questions below, and make your own question. Answer the rest of the survey questions.

1. What have you realized recently?

-That I can be comfortable wearing only a towel in public (don’t ask).

2. Have you give your first kiss away?

-Nope, not yet. No girl is crazy enough to kiss me.

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 11 blog buddies you'd take with you?

-Farhana, Yen Yen, Azfar, (Abang) Lutfi, Emillio, Shane, (Kak) Lubna, Razleen, Marinah, ReySha and Ming Yi.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

-I think, of all places, France. I love the language!

5. How many languages can you speak?

-Fluently, 2. Not so fluently, add another 2 more. Just a few phrases, and you can add another 20.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after it rain?

-Yes.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

-My eyesight. I’m selfish, I know. But it’s the one thing I cherish most.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

-I’d probably keep it in a bank. I’m a keeper, not a spender.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

-I kinda did. It didn’t go so well, remember?

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

-She’s adorable, funny and extremely smart.

11. If you had hundreds of guys/girls after you. What would you do??

-Be extremely confused why they suddenly had bad taste in guys.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

-I don’t generally hate people.

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?

-My life.

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

-I’d want them to point them out. How else would I improve?

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

-Too many things to say specifically.

16. Would you like to be burn alive or die by drowning?

-Burned alive. Drowning is ten times worse, since you suffer more.

17. If your house burned down, what is the ONE thing you’d save from your room?

-Since I’d probably be wearing my glasses, I’d have to say my phone. Or my retainers.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?

-Nothing. If I changed something, I’d be a completely different person. And I wouldn’t want that.

19. What do you hate most about teens today?

-The stupid status quo. So who cares if the guy is a nerd? Just talk to him! So what if she’s prep and you’re a jock? Ask her out! Sheesh. The world would be a better place if the status quo was gone.

And I tag...

- Whoever that wants to do this.

I was going to blog about my trip to Makkah, but I'm too lazy. So here's a survey instead! Maybe next time.

Till next time,

~Josh the Joshster~

5 useless facts about Sharrif

"Tags are universal now. Either in games, vlogs, videos, items for sale and yes, even blogs."

Wow, after an absence, the only thing I can do is a tag. You must really hate me, right? Especially since my last post was so long. Well, it's not my fault. The stupid teachers in my stupid school do not know the meaning of "rest". They give us loads of homework and expect us to finish it by the deadline stated. Don't they know that we, unlike them, actually have a life?

Right, on to the actual purpose of this post. Thanks to Ryan (Darn you!), I now have to post 5 random and useless facts about me. So, here goes. Note: I'm only going to put facts that practically no one knows.

"What's that you say? You want my first fact?"

Fact number 1 about me is, I really hate it when someone calls me "Sheikh". I don't care that it's easier to say than "Sharrif"! I still hate it a lot! It not only feels formal, but you sound like you're calling my Dad! Please, don't do that. As an added thought, every time someone calls me "Sheikh", I really have this strong urge to beat the person up, be it guy or girl. Since I don't hit girls, I tend to say to myself, "Pretend he's a girl, pretend he's a girl..." until I calm down.

"Don't tell me you wanna know more?!"

The second fact about me is that I keep having this thought of me either faking my death or having some kind of terrible accident happen to me. No, it's not because I have a sick imagination or something like that! It's just, well, I want to know who really cares about me. I want to see how many people visit my "grave", or visit me in the hospital. Heck, I even want to know how many people would attend my funeral. I keep guessing the amount, and it's really low, to be frank.

"Another one? You sure?"

Number 3 in my list of useless facts is that I have imaginary friends. (I can't believe that I actually typed that...) Their names are Tom, Mark and Farah. They each specialize in helping different aspects of my life. Tom helps me in life. Mark with my school life. Farah with my love life. So if you see me talking to myself, I'm not, actually. I'm talking to them. Yes, I know that people with imaginary friends are those that are depressed. I don't think I am, but then, who knows, really? I guess that deep down, I really am depressed. Either that, or my imagination is way too high. I prefer the latter one.

"If you keep this up, it's gonna start costin' ya."

Lucky number 4. Time to talk about something extra personal. I often feel ignored and unloved, either at home or at school. Yeah, sure, you can say that you care for me and whatnot, but I look at actions, not words. Even though actions can lie, at least you're making the effort of trying to make it seem that I'm cared for. Why do I think like this? In a group conversation, I'm usually left out. When I try to enter the discussion, I usually get ignored and just end up listening.

Speaking of listening, I really hate the fact that I'm always listening. I listen to everyone's problems, but none listen to mine. Another thing I hate is that although loads of girls have said that girls will like me because (and they'll give their own reasons), but how come none have even said so? The reason I can make out is that I'm the type of guy that girls only want as a friend, never as a boyfriend. Well, I guess it's the bachelor life for me.

"What is it with you and my life?!"

At last, here we are. The end of the line. I think I'll just say something non-personal and random, to counter the last one.

I like eggs.

Haha, too random, I know. But seriously, though. This next fact is that I love oxymorons. Flawed perfection. Honest lies. Sweet bitterness. Dumb genius. Smart idiot. Organized chaos. Chaotic peace. Rich beggar. Poor millionare.

Those kinda stuff. Why? I don't know why. I just love oxymorons. If it contradicts itself, I'll love it.

Okay, then. I haven't finished my History folio yet (and it's due tomorrow! Oh God!), so

Till next time,

~Josh the Joshster~

Embarrassing? NOT!

"Rejecting someone is much more painful than rejection."

You know what this means, right? No, I didn't reject someone. I was rejected! No need worry, I'm fine.

Really.

I can see it in your eyes. You don't believe me. Okay, then let me clarify this. I'd rather be rejected than accepted by someone. I know, I'm weird. Deal with it. Look, no matter how much I feel for someone, the reason I don't want to be accepted is because I don't want to be in a relationship of any kind, at least not until I'm 18. So if I'm accepted, it'll not only make us feel awkward and uncomfortable with each other, but I'd end up hurting her, because not everyone thinks like me. Heck, I think I'm the only one that does think like this.

Wanna know something weird? When she rejected me (I'll tell you how later in this post), I thought I'd feel crushed, destroyed... You know, that kind of feeling. But actually, I felt relieved. And when I heard that practically everyone in class had read my blog, I felt relieved as well. I don't have to keep it a secret anymore, eh?

Their reaction was interesting. I was expecting people like Aizat pushing me towards her when I was near her and vice-versa, or maybe people making us be in the same group or something like that. You know, funny but annoying stuff.

But, no. All that happened was that everyone coughed and cleared their throats and said stuff about blogs (especially during English - we were making an article on stopping students from spending too much time on the computer) and just kept saying our names. It was interesting, though, that everyone actually took the time to read this blog of mine. Tell me. Am I really that important to you all? If so, then I'm touched. Really, I am. (Haha, this is definitely just wishful thinking. As if anyone cares)

But, guys, come on! Be a bit more creative! Frankly, I was very disappointed when coughing, name calling and throat clearing were the best that you could do. I expected better. Now, on to the part that you've all been waiting for! How she rejected me. *Climatic music plays in background* Sorry, I couldn't resist. I'm not going to apolo Heh, I couldn't resist.

Right. Well, obviously she didn't just go up to me and say, "Sharrif, I don't like you." That would not only be rude, but tactless. Actually, my friend asked her (without my permission. In fact, I didn't even ask her to ask) and she said she didn't like me. Then, after school, she was complaining to me that I should "censor" and "keep certain things to myself" in my blog. The only thing I'm going to say to that is, I'm not going to lie just to make someone happy. Not even for her. Especially not her. If you can't be honest with the person you have feelings for, than what's the point?

Not only that, but she even said that she just wanted to be friends (something I've only wanted the entire time), so she's just implying that she doesn't like me. She even added "you can't expect me to have the same feelings as you.". If you need more proof, then you're just too big an optimist. But hey, I got to be "best friend" status with her! Score! Oh, yeah, I rock. Haha, right, sure I do.

Well, that's about it for now. Man, my posts are all so short! I gotta find more things ramble on about.

Oh, before I go, I have to answer this blog survey. I was tagged, so I gotta do it.

THE BASICS

Real name: Sheikh Muhammad Sharrif Belwael bin Sheikh Salleh
Nickname: Sharrif, Sheikh (hate this one!), Josh, Riffraff, Rif, Shar.
Married: Yes, with 23 kids. What do you think?!
Male or Female: Male and proud of it!
High School: Sekolah Menengah Seksyen 9.
College: I'm still in high school, but hopefully my future college will be in Australia.
Short or long hair: Short?
Are you a health freak: Yes, watching TV and playing the computer is very healthy.
Height: I'm quite short, at around 5'5". I think.
Do you have a crush on someone: It's more than that, actually. Haha.
Do you like yourself: Why wouldn't I?
Piercings: None, and never getting any.
Righty or Lefty: I was born a left hander but my mom made me become a right hander. So, righty.

FIRSTS

Surgery: My tonsils were taken out.
Piercing: No piercings are on my body.
Person you see in the morning: Usually it's my brother.
Award: I think it was for getting number 2 in class. I'm still holding a grudge against you, Ming Yi! Haha, just kidding.
Sport you joined: Swimming!
Pet: A couple of rabbits.
Vacation: I was still a baby, but I think it was L.A. or L.V..
Concert: I haven't been to one yet.
Crush: Her.

CURRENTLY

Eating: Nothing.
Drinking: My saliva?
I'm about to: Publish this post and then go to bed.

YOUR FUTURE

Want kids: Yes.
Want to get married: Yes, but who'd ever be crazy enough to say "I do." to me?
Careers in mind: I want to be a pilot, math lecturer, accountant, take over my dad's company as well as enroll in boot camp. Yes, I'm serious.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: Eyes, the windows to the soul.
Hugs or kisses: I'd prefer hugs, but can't I have both?
Shorter or taller: It depends. For what?
Romantic or spontaneous: I don't care, I'm saying both for this one. But if I had to choose, it'd be romantic.
Sensitive or loud: I want both to be balanced, but if I could only have one, than it'd be the first one.
Trouble maker or hesitant: Obviously hesitant.


HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed a stranger: Why would I do something disgusting like that?
Drank bubbles: Yep, when I was younger.
Lost glasses / contacts: I lose 'em while I'm wearing 'em. It's kinda embarrassing.
Ran away from home: Not yet, no.
Liked someone younger: Yes.
Liked someone older: Nope.
Broken someone's heart: Not that I know of, so no.
Been arrested: I wish. But, the answer is no.
Liked a friend: Um, who do you think I currently like? A stranger off the streets??

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: Most of the time.
Miracles: Life is a miracle.
Heaven: Of course.
Santa Claus: If he exists, then I'm Big Foot.
Angles: Yea.
God: Of course I believe in Him!


Is there someone you want to be with right now?
No, not really.

Tag 5 people:

1. Shane
2. Emillio
3. ReySha
4. Farhana (Mum)
5. YOU

Alright, I'm going to go now. Wow, one survey made the difference to my blog.

Till next time,

~Josh the Joshster~