"Writing is the gift of Man."
I've missed writing. I guess I can thank Twitter for my comeback here. The constant typing and Tweeting has gotten the writing urge to come alive back in me. I guess I'll be updating regularly now; but I'll just say it now that there is NO way I'll be posting often. I just don't have the time to!
Rereading all my previous posts, I'm kinda embarrassed. My way of writing, my thoughts... They felt so naive, pessimistic and young. I guess that's to be expected. I'm not much older now, but just looking at the old ones... I feel older. Time does that to a person, I guess. Hopefully I've grown for the better.
Staring at the timestamp of my last post, I'm actually just in awe. Two years. Two whole years since I last posted on this blog. Alright, I might be rounding off a bit. Still though, you have to admit. November 2009 until May 2011 is a long time to be AWOL. That's also a very long time period that I need to update you guys on. (Look, I don't care if there's no one reading this; if you are, humour me, will you?)
Two years in a nutshell.
I loved.
I lost.
I studied.
I failed.
I passed.
I scored.
I lived.
Yes, that's pretty much it. I loved a girl. I lost her. I don't regret what I did, though the current me wishes I did things differently then. Not much I can do now.
SPM came and left (to those unaware, SPM is equivalent to UK's GSCE or O-levels) and I got my results while I was in the UK. Which reminds me to mention, I got to stay for about two months at London with my cousins, from the beginning of February to the end of March. My little niece (cousin's daughter) Iris was just soo adorable! I WILL post pictures of her in my next update. She's way too precious to not have on here. Moving on, my results were thankfully good. I managed to get 2A+, 4A, 3A- and a B+. That B+ totally messed up my results, but what can you do, right?
Later on, I registered into Sunway University (it's a local university here) and I'm doing A-levels right now. My subjects are Maths, Economics, Chemistry and Physics. That, and my first semester exam starts on Monday. Yes, this Monday. Physics is going to slaughter me. It's just not staying in my head. Hmm.
College life, otherwise, is pretty neat. I've met some awesome people. We'll see how things go from there.
Some things are still the same. I feel get up feeling terrible about myself. I still cringe when I look in the mirror. I still have low self-esteem. I still say things I don't mean. I still have no idea how to act in a social setting. I'm still awkward. I'm still lazy. I'm still that young kid that never grew out of his shell properly. I still prefer myself over another's company.
Hey, that's life. You can't change what can't be changed, at least not easily or quickly. Maybe these things will stop being this way, but maybe not. Not much I can really do about it, is there?
There's not much more I can add on to here, really. This will still be simply a blog with giant blocks of words. Enjoy.
~Sharrif~
