Screw ups and failures

"It's easier to stay down."

I'm failing in everything.

It's 2:30 AM, two days after a birthday that barely anyone remembered, hours after an exam I know I flunked, and a little over an hour after screwing things up once again.

What a great month it's been.

Please let it end, please.

Salut,
~J

If you're reading this-

"There's still time - but what if there isn't?"

Why does moving feel like I'm cheating? This is so unfair. Why can't I fall in love with someone and just move on?

Even my dreams are unrealistic BS that disguise themselves as something that could happen. Why does my subconscious pair me up with someone who doesn't even like me? GAH.

This is so typical.

Thanks, world.

Thanks so much.

You are just so... good to me.

Salut,
~J