Wednesday, 14 November 2007

Update on life

"Don't look for the silver lining when gold is better."

Hey, guys. It's been a while, I know. I haven't had time to get online lately, and every time that I did get online, I was too busy catching up on things online (such as finishing moves on an online chess site before my turn expires and chatting with people I haven't chatted to in a long time) to post a post. (That sounds weird, by the way) Well, loads of things have been happening lately. Since it's too much of a bother to list them all, I'll just highlight certain things.

I had my first gig (as a drummer) on the third of this month, and the best thing was, I didn't mess up! Woo hoo! Man, it was a fun experience. I even managed to meet a few new friends, whose names are Prabu, Pooven and Iranus. In that order. Prabu was the second guitarist, Pooven is his brother and Iranus is both their cousin and the other drummer.

I did my band practice at my pet brother's house (I'm still not saying his name just in case reads it, even though I'm making it kinda obvious), you know, the one who's sister I like? To those wondering, no, he didn't give her the note. He said that it was "too dangerous". He stated the fact that she might show it to her parents, and since their mum knows that I like her, my cover would (might, at least) get blown. "Ka-ba-BOOM" blown.

To those curious, I managed to start a conversation with her. It wasn't that hard, but as I might have stated in an earlier post (I'm not sure whether I did or not) we are complete opposites. I'm loud, she's quiet. I'm more of an extrovert, she's more of an introvert. I smile a lot (to the point of too much), she rarely smiles (to the point where her mum even said that they should put it into a time capsule. "It", being her smile on a camcorder.)

I'm not sure whether this is relevant or not, but according to her brother (who is my friend and pet brother, as I say again) she's smiling and talking more since I left. I'm not sure whether it was my doing or not, but if it was, I was but one word to say to that: Cool!

Later in the month (the eight), my cousin (or my Mum's friend's son; I'm not really sure which) slept over. Earlier that day, I went to this career consultant person from the UK with my friend to get our careers... "Consulted". I ended up getting way different than from what I wanted (which were a pilot and/or accountant). It was a lot of medical careers, oddly. Later I realized that I did something I always did in chess: I over thought a couple of the questions. Man, was I pissed off when I realized that. It meant that I could have actually gotten either "accountant" and/or "pilot". At least there's a "re-meet" later on next year. (It's because as I'm maturing, I'll start thinking differently, therefore I may get different career choices)

My cousin (or friend. Like I said earlier, I'm not sure) and I played a game called "Spy VS Spy", where we basically just have to kill each other, get the four secret items, and get the Hell out of there, and he went and back stabbed me. The way he did it was smart, but I'm still angry about it. At least we teamed up again later on, and he didn't back stab me.

Remember the dudes Prabu, Pooven and Iranus that I was talking about earlier? Well, we (my cousin/friend and me) were invited to an open house at Prabu and Pooven's house. It was a Deepavali open house, and we played with the firecrackers. Later in the house, the guys started dancing the "Shuffle", if you've heard of it. Nabil (my cousin/friend) kept pushing me in.

Other than that, at my cousin's house, I learned a few new magic tricks. My cousin was good, but I could see right through them. Must be a gift of mine. (Okay, big head of mine. Time to swell down) He even gave me a couple of the sites where he learned the tricks. For those interested, the websites will be added in the end of this post.

Then, on Wednesday (the 14th) I won something on FLyFM! (It's a radio station, to those who don't live in Malaysia and/or have never heard of it) It was awesome! I won four movie tickets to a movie called... A movie called... Well, it has "Universe" in it, that's all I can remember. I even won a Timex (or is it "TimeX"?) watch. The best part? I only sent one SMS (SMS means texting, to those who don't know). Was I lucky or what?

The only drawback to that, however, is the fact that I can't collect the prize myself. I have to collect it 20th of November, and at that time I'll be in LA, off on holiday. I'll be leaving on the 18th. Don't worry, I'll post as soon as I get back. Or, as soon as I get on a computer. That's a promise. If I can, I'll even put in pictures of the trip.

That's enough for one post, I guess.

Till next time,

~Josh the Joshster~

P.S. The magic trick sites can be found in Google. Sorry, guys, but I promised my cousin about not telling anyone else about it, and that includes YOU.

Thursday, 1 November 2007

A rut in my life

"Keep on fighting. Never give up. But if you have to give up, do it with style."

I'm in the biggest rut of my life as of yet. Everything seems to be going bad for me lately. I'm still being my optimistic self, as always, but it's hard to smile when your entire world is breaking apart. Too many things (well, maybe not too many things, but it's still a lot to me) are going wrong.

My Mum and Dad are being unfair - something they rarely are - to me, and it's being more and more frequent. I like two girls (one for her stunningly sweet smile and one for her gorgeous eyes) yet I can't choose between them; Even if I could choose, it'd still be a bad thing: One is taken (the one with the gorgeous eyes) while the other is so completely different from me, I'm giving up before I've even started. One of my four best friends is moving to another country. I got a mere 86% (a first) for my Math. My drum tempo (timing) isn't exactly right. My pet sister hates me. And lastly, my other pet sister is ignoring me.

That's about it.

This is one of those rare "half-empty" posts in my blog. It's just that, I can't help it. To you, my problems may seem trivial, but to me, it's an incredibly big deal. It's too much stress for someone who normally can deflect stress. I... Just can't deflect it this time, for some reason.

Oh, there's also one more I forgot. When I saw her (the girl with the smile) I had a few chances to talk to her, but I blew it. Again! I've seriously thought of getting myself shot.

Honest.

I'd never consider, much less do, suicide, but I can understand how people could think that there's no way out. It seriously feels like I'm living in my own personal Hell at the moment. Oh, just perfect. My PC is giving me trouble right now.

I'm in such a deep rut right now, even the things that make me smile and laugh don't work as well as they normally do. At least there's still Ben and Luqman. They are the only people I know that can make me laugh uncontrollably for hours on end.

Oh, wow! Something great just happened! My pet sis doesn't hate me anymore! Oh, yeah! I guess this is what happens when you're optimistic even when you're in the deepest rut of your life: Things start looking up. Oops, I've gotta go now. I'll make another post ASAP!

Till next time...

~Josh the Joshster~
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Why "Flawed Perfection"?

I chose "Flawed Perfection" because nice ones such as "Honest Lies" and "Organized Chaos" were already chosen. In fact, Flawed Perfection was already chosen as well, but among all my ideas, this one was my favourite.

I like the reminder that everything is flawed perfectly.

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