Monday 14 April 2008

Embarrassing? NOT!

"Rejecting someone is much more painful than rejection."

You know what this means, right? No, I didn't reject someone. I was rejected! No need worry, I'm fine.

Really.

I can see it in your eyes. You don't believe me. Okay, then let me clarify this. I'd rather be rejected than accepted by someone. I know, I'm weird. Deal with it. Look, no matter how much I feel for someone, the reason I don't want to be accepted is because I don't want to be in a relationship of any kind, at least not until I'm 18. So if I'm accepted, it'll not only make us feel awkward and uncomfortable with each other, but I'd end up hurting her, because not everyone thinks like me. Heck, I think I'm the only one that does think like this.

Wanna know something weird? When she rejected me (I'll tell you how later in this post), I thought I'd feel crushed, destroyed... You know, that kind of feeling. But actually, I felt relieved. And when I heard that practically everyone in class had read my blog, I felt relieved as well. I don't have to keep it a secret anymore, eh?

Their reaction was interesting. I was expecting people like Aizat pushing me towards her when I was near her and vice-versa, or maybe people making us be in the same group or something like that. You know, funny but annoying stuff.

But, no. All that happened was that everyone coughed and cleared their throats and said stuff about blogs (especially during English - we were making an article on stopping students from spending too much time on the computer) and just kept saying our names. It was interesting, though, that everyone actually took the time to read this blog of mine. Tell me. Am I really that important to you all? If so, then I'm touched. Really, I am. (Haha, this is definitely just wishful thinking. As if anyone cares)

But, guys, come on! Be a bit more creative! Frankly, I was very disappointed when coughing, name calling and throat clearing were the best that you could do. I expected better. Now, on to the part that you've all been waiting for! How she rejected me. *Climatic music plays in background* Sorry, I couldn't resist. I'm not going to apolo Heh, I couldn't resist.

Right. Well, obviously she didn't just go up to me and say, "Sharrif, I don't like you." That would not only be rude, but tactless. Actually, my friend asked her (without my permission. In fact, I didn't even ask her to ask) and she said she didn't like me. Then, after school, she was complaining to me that I should "censor" and "keep certain things to myself" in my blog. The only thing I'm going to say to that is, I'm not going to lie just to make someone happy. Not even for her. Especially not her. If you can't be honest with the person you have feelings for, than what's the point?

Not only that, but she even said that she just wanted to be friends (something I've only wanted the entire time), so she's just implying that she doesn't like me. She even added "you can't expect me to have the same feelings as you.". If you need more proof, then you're just too big an optimist. But hey, I got to be "best friend" status with her! Score! Oh, yeah, I rock. Haha, right, sure I do.

Well, that's about it for now. Man, my posts are all so short! I gotta find more things ramble on about.

Oh, before I go, I have to answer this blog survey. I was tagged, so I gotta do it.

THE BASICS


Real name:
Sheikh Muhammad Sharrif Belwael bin Sheikh Salleh
Nickname:
Sharrif, Sheikh (hate this one!), Josh, Riffraff, Rif, Shar.
Married:
Yes, with 23 kids. What do you think?!
Male or Female:
Male and proud of it!
High School:
Sekolah Menengah Seksyen 9.
College:
I'm still in high school, but hopefully my future college will be in Australia.
Short or long hair
: Short?
Are you a health freak:
Yes, watching TV and playing the computer is very healthy.
Height:
I'm quite short, at around 5'5". I think.
Do you have a crush on someone:
It's more than that, actually. Haha.
Do you like yourself:
Why wouldn't I?
Piercings:
None, and never getting any.
Righty or Lefty: I was born a left hander but my mom made me become a right hander. So, righty.

FIRSTS


Surgery:
My tonsils were taken out.
Piercing:
No piercings are on my body.
Person you see in the morning:
Usually it's my brother.
Award:
I think it was for getting number 2 in class. I'm still holding a grudge against you, Ming Yi! Haha, just kidding.
Sport you joined:
Swimming!
Pet:
A couple of rabbits.
Vacation:
I was still a baby, but I think it was L.A. or L.V..
Concert:
I haven't been to one yet.
Crush: Her.

CURRENTLY


Eating:
Nothing.
Drinking:
My saliva?
I'm about to: Publish this post and then go to bed.

YOUR FUTURE


Want kids:
Yes.
Want to get married:
Yes, but who'd ever be crazy enough to say "I do." to me?
Careers in mind: I want to be a pilot, math lecturer, accountant, take over my dad's company as well as enroll in boot camp. Yes, I'm serious.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER


Lips or eyes:
Eyes, the windows to the soul.
Hugs or kisses:
I'd prefer hugs, but can't I have both?
Shorter or taller:
It depends. For what?
Romantic or spontaneous:
I don't care, I'm saying both for this one. But if I had to choose, it'd be romantic.
Sensitive or loud:
I want both to be balanced, but if I could only have one, than it'd be the first one.
Trouble maker or hesitant: Obviously hesitant.


HAVE YOU EVER


Kissed a stranger:
Why would I do something disgusting like that?
Drank bubbles:
Yep, when I was younger.
Lost glasses / contacts:
I lose 'em while I'm wearing 'em. It's kinda embarrassing.
Ran away from home:
Not yet, no.
Liked someone younger:
Yes.
Liked someone older:
Nope.
Broken someone's heart: Not that I know of, so no.
Been arrested: I wish. But, the answer is no.
Liked a friend: Um, who do you think I currently like? A stranger off the streets??

DO YOU BELIEVE IN


Yourself:
Most of the time.
Miracles:
Life is a miracle.
Heaven:
Of course.
Santa Claus:
If he exists, then I'm Big Foot.
Angles:
Yea.
God: Of course I believe in Him!


Is there someone you want to be with right now?
No, not really.

Tag 5 people:


1. Shane
2. Emillio
3. ReySha
4. Farhana (Mum)
5. YOU

Alright, I'm going to go now. Wow, one survey made the difference to my blog.

Till next time,

~Josh the Joshster~

3 comments:

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Josh Carter said...

Hey, thanks for the comment. I didn't think anyone other than my schoolmates actually read this blog. I'll be sure to add your blog to my links. ;)

Josh Carter said...

Thanks, Christian. :) Really appreciate it.

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